This looks like the jumbled mess that I see every time I pull out my Christmas decorations. Dread putting up my tree every year, as it gets harder to trim it the older I get. Passed on it for three years now, but will have to do it this year, as I'm having guests. Bah hum bug.
I no longer do a Christmas tree. Our house has low ceilings and not much space to put a good one up. I used to when my son was with us but storing it took up so much space. I still have many decorations for it. Maybe this year I'll ditch them also.
Christmas used to be my favorite day of the year. Not any more.
It takes more energy than I have and my husband only likes the liturgical end of it. We "celebrate" alone and he has me buy myself my own presents. I do all the decorating so I have cut back. I stopped doing the snow scene. I just do the creche. When Christmas season is over I put up the snow scene. We used to go out to eat and see a movie, but the movies are all for kids now and I can tolerate few foods so we just go to Mass and come home. Now that I don't sing at Christmas that depresses me also. I could do some lovely solos but getting involved in leading or singing in a choir is more work than I can take on. Solos aren't for the best singer. They are a reward for service which I am no longer able to provide. I miss doing Jesu Bambino and O Holy Night. Last year I asked to do Jesu at Epiphany and the director let me but cut off the end of it. The pastor thanked me over and over, but since then I approached the director to do another (He Shall Feed His Flock for Good Shepherd Sunday and Ave Maria for Mother's Day) he refused because his wife was due to give birth around that time. Eventhough she birthed over a week b4 Mother's Day he didn't contact me to do the Ave. Everybody at church loves my solos. Some wanted one every week. I don't understand why God doesn't want me singing any more. It hurts my heart.
Pixi, I don't think it's God's wish, I think it's the mean spirits running the music for your church. Your singing made them feel small and since you enjoyed it so much, they cut you off.
pixipixil
Sep 24, 2018
Thank you, aknan. If so, eventually God will open another door.
sisgp
Sep 26, 2018
You should not sing to God for outward recognition, I sing to Him for Him, so I sing while I am cooking, I sing to Him while cleaning, I sing to hm ANY TIME including carols I like. Don't let outward things take your Joy, it is in the spirit that we should live and connect to our maker and redeemer.
pixipixil
Sep 26, 2018
You sound like a happy person sisgp. When we sing we pray twice and I practice for 40+ minutes five days a week at home when my husband is out. I count that as prayer. It is hard, though, once one has been yoked to service to simply "sing in the shower" so to speak. That may be all God wants right now.
aknan
Sep 27, 2018
As time goes by, your path will become clear, pixi. Keep the faith until then!
pixipixil
Sep 27, 2018
Amen, Aknan. You know it!
sisgp
Sep 27, 2018
Luckily pixpixil God is the only one who has to listen to me sing, its a little like a wailing cat..LOL but as long as it is from the heart that's all that counts and it definitely makes you feel good. 17 years ago I was taken on a path I didn't want or plan after a motorcycle accident left me permanently very lame, I lost my career and more over it. But it seemed God had a different plan for me, and once I accepted it the better things got. I still morn the life I lost (I was an airline pilot) but find that I have probably been more use where I am now and that obedience gives me solace. Keep the faith XOXOX.
aknan
Sep 27, 2018
Pixi, any possibility you could sing at retirement homes or care homes? I know the residents at the care center where I give manicures eagerly watch for musical programs.
pixipixil
Sep 27, 2018
Aknan, I have been mulling over that possibility.
pixipixil
Sep 27, 2018
Sisgp--You are very brave. A neighbor who was a race car driver had something similar happen to him. He is an inspiration because although his entire body is twisted, he keeps going and never sits around expecting people to "do for him". He has several daughters and two foster children that he and his wife adopted and she just died of cancer less than a year ago. Those of you God has given a brave heart he also give the heaviest burdens. Stay strong. XOXOX.
sisgp
Sep 28, 2018
Thanks pixipixil, we all have a cross to bare just mine is more visible than most. I think aknans suggestion is excellent.
JAMP124
Sep 30, 2019
Aknan had the right idea. When my mother was in a nursing home, my husband and I did several slide shows. The residents, many of whom had traveled a lot, loved them. You could do an"Around the World" program with songs from or about various countries. I'd love to be in your audience! Maybe we could all come!!!!!!!!
I have done these puzzles for about five years - this one is the hardest I have done. Had to move from 192 to 108 for the first time. Quite the challenge.
I think I will have to give up the daily puzzles. this was so hard for my eyes to see even at 6 pcs. C4J seems to be searching for this type of puzzle lately
Christmas used to be my favorite day of the year. Not any more.
It takes more energy than I have and my husband only likes the liturgical end of it. We "celebrate" alone and he has me buy myself my own presents. I do all the decorating so I have cut back. I stopped doing the snow scene. I just do the creche. When Christmas season is over I put up the snow scene. We used to go out to eat and see a movie, but the movies are all for kids now and I can tolerate few foods so we just go to Mass and come home. Now that I don't sing at Christmas that depresses me also. I could do some lovely solos but getting involved in leading or singing in a choir is more work than I can take on. Solos aren't for the best singer. They are a reward for service which I am no longer able to provide. I miss doing Jesu Bambino and O Holy Night. Last year I asked to do Jesu at Epiphany and the director let me but cut off the end of it. The pastor thanked me over and over, but since then I approached the director to do another (He Shall Feed His Flock for Good Shepherd Sunday and Ave Maria for Mother's Day) he refused because his wife was due to give birth around that time. Eventhough she birthed over a week b4 Mother's Day he didn't contact me to do the Ave. Everybody at church loves my solos. Some wanted one every week. I don't understand why God doesn't want me singing any more. It hurts my heart.