Pixie I am not a parent not have I been married. However, I have learned that the loss of a loved children is heart breaking. I have also learned that the Lord is the God of all comfort and will remain with you when all else fails. Lean on the Lord and trust Him with your pain, and all of the emotions you feel and in time you will begin to have a sense of peace and that life goes on.
My son is dead. Please pray for his daughters to be placed with parents who will take good care of them as we are too old to take them.
Do not write to me about your prayers as I will be gone from this site for a while. Just pray. The girls are named Isabella (almost 3) and Olivia (almost 1).
Much sympathy for all concerned. Wish I could be there to hug you.
cindyj28
Oct 19, 2014
Pixipixil, I am so sorry to hear about your son, cant image your pain. and your granddaughters will be in my prayers. as will you and your family.
globug
Oct 19, 2014
Oh pixi....
Annie1749
Oct 19, 2014
So sorry for your loss.
susanjanefgm
Oct 19, 2014
Sad for your loss and will pray that all who need His wisdom have it - as well as the strength needed and may the Spirit of peace settle in your heart. Blessings.
trynfindit
Oct 19, 2014
Oh, no, pixi. How awful for you all. You know we all will pray for you and your whole family (even though you said not to write you about our prayers). You have the support of everyone here on C4J.
aussiesapphire
Oct 19, 2014
You said it all trynfindit - much love to Pixi and family. Hugs.
denisemmmm
Oct 19, 2014
Prayers for you from me and my prayer group
JoyceRogers
Oct 20, 2014
Heartfelt sympathy...I can't even imagine losing one of my children. You and your family are in my prayers. Prayers being said for the placement of your granddaughters, hopefully with other family so that you can continue contact with them. Hugs...will miss you on here, but take as long as you need.
manatee
Oct 23, 2014
(pixi) Have no words...prayers of comfort...
aknan
Oct 23, 2014
I share your sorrow. We should never have to bury our children.
pixipixil
Oct 26, 2014
To all of you..it is one week and today has been one of the hardest as all the things that keep you distracted are done--except clearing out the apartment which I don't know I can handle...and the legal stuff which I can't endure under any circumstances. I do not worry about my son who died without fear (as he did not intend to OD) or pain (as he never woke from his fantasy dreams.) I can't talk about it now. Keep praying especially for his oldest daughter(almost 3).
cindyj28
Oct 27, 2014
Will do pixipixil, but am praying for you too. God is good and will carry you through.
pixipixil
Oct 27, 2014
Thanks, Cindy. I really need carrying right now!
globug
Oct 27, 2014
You and your granddaughters have been in my prayers & will continue to be. I wish you strength and comfort
trynfindit
Oct 27, 2014
Pixi, I pray that God guides you through this very difficult time giving you strength, peace and all His love. We all love you too, and pray for you, your grandchildren, and your family.
aknan
Oct 27, 2014
Pixipixil, grief's talons are never sheathed, and its patient capacity to wound is unremitting. It lies in wait for a weak or tired moment and strikes anew. God gave us tears to help us bear unbearable sorrow. Don't hesitate to cry. Your son's angel wings (yes, he has them) are hovering over his girls and you, too. I pray for you to receive the strength and courage you need.
pixipixil
Oct 27, 2014
Thank you, all my good friends. I just got back from my son's apartment. The lawyer for my granddaughter told me I could remove some of her toys and clothes and that in spite of the fact that my son is dead, the psycho mother who now has his child cannot come into the apartment to take anything. I was able to tell his best friend (whom Matt will be glad is taking over the apartment) if she comes to the door claiming she has rights she does not have any. That gives me some peace of mind.
The other grandma is going to launch some kind of action to try to get custody of her. I suggested she sell the idea of joint custody to get her foot in the door and get a new lawyer as the current one has told her she has no chance.
aussiesapphire
Oct 27, 2014
Dear Pixi - I am on holidays at the moment, and my husband brought his laptop with him, so can still access the site but cannot do the puzzles. I am so sorry to hear of all you have to bear at the moment and am praying for the whole situation. Because of my daughter's drug problem I can relate to your pain. May God's mantle of peace cover you. Aknan said it all so beautifully. It is such a privilege to be able to pray for each other. God bless you heaps. Hugs.
manatee
Oct 27, 2014
Pixi, you all are still in my prayers and thoughts. God bless and keep safe the little one.
CatLadyOKC
Oct 27, 2014
Always in our prayers....
pixipixil
Oct 28, 2014
Thank you again. Everybody. Yesterday was a gorgeous Fall day so doing driving to get clothes & toys from the apartment was somewhat healing. It was red sky at morning so today may be rainy. I don't do well even when things arew "normal" when it rains so I will lean on the prayers and lean on the Lord. God bless youi all.
aussiesapphire
Oct 28, 2014
Lots of hugs Pixi.
pixipixil
Oct 28, 2014
Thanks, Aussie--back at you.
cindyj28
Oct 29, 2014
It is ok to cry too. Know that the lot of us are in pain just thinking about your situation. But God is the God of all comfort and He will comfort you.
pixipixil
Oct 29, 2014
I seem to cry more each day. The tears build up and I get exhausted holding them in. But continous crying isn't good either. Getting out helps but it's pouring today. Shopping should help.
Thanks, Cindy
aknan
Nov 10, 2014
Pixi, I just read a quote from Charles Dickens. "It (crying) opens the lungs, washes the countenance, exercises the eyes and softens the temper - so cry away. Tears are our holy water. I hope this helps some. Prayers.
aussiesapphire
Nov 11, 2014
Beautiful aknan - thank you for sharing. Hugs.
manatee
Nov 11, 2014
That is beautiful, aknan. It made me think of the one from Isak Dinesen - "The cure for anything is salt water - sweat, tears or the sea."
pixipixil
Nov 11, 2014
Aknan and manatee--there have been no shortages of tears from myself or my husband...or the huge number of friends who came to tell us of some kindness my son rendered to them or how he had made them laugh at a time they had hit bottom. We await the result of the autopsy. Some claimed he returned to drugs and that may be but he was drinking those energy drinks and we warned him of the danger there. My prayers now are for the daughter he loved so much who is now with her mother --a loose woman with psychological problems. Since she has custody and has shown a determination to separate her daughter from everything in her past life, we can see no good coming from any direct contact which will only serve to upset the mother and therfore make things worse for the child. In addition I cannot for my own mental health, bear to see the child with her father now dead. My husband and I now leave her in God's hands and only ask for prayers for her which is all we feel capable of doing now.
trynfindit
Nov 11, 2014
Pixi, what you and your husband are going through has to be one of the most difficult things in the world. Is there any chance y'all can get visitation rights to see the girls? While you may not be able to cope with seeing them with their mother, you and your husband may be the best things in her young life. At least you'd get the chance to teach them about God and show them a more normal lifestyle than that of their mother.
cindyj28
Nov 11, 2014
I understand your pain, and will pray for the little one, and God knows all about this whole mess, nothing surprises Him. He loves that little one totally and completely. And He prepares a way for her. Do not doubt Him, Remember Joseph for the bible and the weird path God had him on. But God was always with him. May that help you in your journey.
Hi heather, it is a blackburnian warbler. If you scroll down to just under the solve times, there is always an explanation of the picture under there. Hugs.
heathertaylor
Oct 23, 2014
Thanks, aussie I never knew that. I will try to keep it in mind.
Do not write to me about your prayers as I will be gone from this site for a while. Just pray. The girls are named Isabella (almost 3) and Olivia (almost 1).
The other grandma is going to launch some kind of action to try to get custody of her. I suggested she sell the idea of joint custody to get her foot in the door and get a new lawyer as the current one has told her she has no chance.
Thanks, Cindy